So I did it. I went out for lunch all by myself.
It wasn’t too painful, but I wouldn’t say I had the time of my life. I did ok with not sitting there in complete fear of what other people were thinking of me. I went to Potbelly and that’s a busy place during lunch. I don’t usually eat there when I have lunch there because it is quite crowded. It wasn’t super crowded when I went – definitely a full house that only got fuller, but I was able to find a table where people could see me but I wasn’t hogging up a table that would be better suited for the larger groups.
I ordered, stood in line, paid, grabbed my drink and headed for a table. I actually picked a table where people could see me because otherwise what would be the point of this? They do have some tables tucked way in the back, and I was hoping that I wouldn’t get stuck at one of those because I really wanted to do this. I got all settled in and ready to eat and I looked around and noticed that most people were having conversations with the people they were eating with, not staring at me judging me. Sigh of relief to actually realize that. It was at that point that I knew I’d make it through this lunch without having a mini-panic attack and scarfing down my food like I haven’t eaten in weeks. It was really hard not to rush through my food, but not because I was nervous – because I was freaking starving! So that was a challenge, but that’s another kind of challenge for me.
I did decide that it wasn’t all that fun because I quickly grew bored of my experiment. Not bored in a way that I didn’t want to do it, but like ADD bored. I didn’t have anyone to talk to and I checked all the essentials on my phone (Facebook, email, twitter…ya know, the things that only update as often as people update their stuff). I hadn’t planned ahead so I didn’t bring a magazine or anything to read. I played a card game on my phone, but that was difficult to keep attention on that and eat my sandwich at the same time. So next time a magazine will have to accompany me on my lunch excursion.
Overall I think I did ok. Am I ready for an entire dinner out? I don’t know. I suppose I won’t really know until I try, but I’d like to get a little more comfortable with all of this before I try anything so daring.